Damaged Merchandise is a book about hope and dreams. Even those lost in an alcoholic or drug induce haze,
have dreams. They were just lost or "damaged" due to the abuse. With sobriety, came the knowledge that I
needed to live in the real world. Still, with reality it was OK to dream. And with reality, I achieved goals, which I
hoped would make my dreams come true! Damaged Merchandise is the story of dreams coming true, while
living in the real world.
Told through stories and poems, Damaged Merchandise: Poems and Stories of an Alcoholic Addict, is my story.
A story of destruction and damage, which 12 years later, I'm still trying to correct. At times, the poems leave the
reader wondering "what if?" and that's OK, because the final chapter, in my life has yet to be written.
From homelessness, to ODing, failed suicides, running and hiding (both from myself and the law), its all here.
From drug dealing, to stealing, to hitch-hiking the USA, the reader enters a world, where few go and fewer
Damaged Merchandise is now available as audio book. Click here for more information on this project and to
order yours today.
The beginning of Chapter 2 entitled Abuse...
It wasn't to long ago, in our history, that abuse was easy to define. Someone who was physically beaten was indeed abused. But, it
did not involve children. Some kids needed to be beaten, to help "straighten them out." Spouses were an OK target to physically
punish, as the law did little to help them, believing the couple was married and it was a private matter. As years went by, our
understanding of abuse changed. Children did not have to be a target for their parents. Spouses were also protected.
From the story Rational Desolation...
Damn! I hate the day and I pray for the night. I hope it comes soon. I don't want to fight. People don't bother me, my parents don't
scare me, my brothers and my friends don't know me.... more of this story on page 77
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Have you ever been to a larger size city and walked through their busy main streets? You'll look into the windows and see
merchandise, you've never seen before. You'll stop into a little cafe and try some "home cooking." You'll watch the people walk by
on the sidewalks, the cars behind them, racing in both directions. Then reality sets in, ever so slowly, a dirty man, with torn clothes,
has his hand out, begging for money. Some look away, others feel pity, while still others are angry. I know, because I seen all these
feelings when I was homeless. I heard stories from the Bible, and was told to "get a job!" I was harassed, kicked and spit upon. It
didn't bother me, just please, give me your loose change. I grew up in a proud home (with what the outside saw) that had strong
values. But they didn't see inside the closed doors, it was quite dysfunctional. It was from this craziness, that I survived. I survived
homelessness, alcoholism, drug addiction, divorces, numerous court cases and jail. That craziness made me who I am. That
craziness gave me a life, it gave me an excuse. For most of my adult life, my childhood ruled me. Marriages failed because of my
parents. It was their fault I lost jobs. On and on, it went. As long as it was their fault, I did not have to accept responsibility for my
actions. That was until my drinking could not be avoided. In court rooms, they didn't want to hear about "poor Dave." They would
not let me push my responsibility on someone else. Looking at many years in the penal system, the fear of God set in, and I realized
this was my last chance. Some would say, I quit to avoid jail. They are correct. But that fear has kept me sober for over nine years. I
still remember my last drunk, my first day in court, and my first counseling session. I was defeated, scared, and totally hopeless. If I
didn't go to court, there is little doubt in my mind, that I would be dead. Either someone would have killed me, I would have killed
myself, or alcoholism would have done me in. While alcoholism, helped me survive many trials, it should be stated that, all these
trials I created! Sobriety, brought new challenges. Most people call this - life! Pay bills, accept responsibility and try to rebuild burnt
bridges. Sobriety gave me strength and courage to move forward. I am so thankful, that my wife, Betty did not have to go through
breast cancer alone. If I was drinking, I wouldn't have been there for her, physically - maybe, spiritually - no way.
What's been said about Damaged Merchandise
From PublishAmerica Executive Director, Miranda Prather, said that Harm's book "is a well written and crafted work of
contemporary poetry. Mr. Harm is a promising talent in his field." Read the whole article Overcoming Addiction, Living a Dream.
Tom Osborne, US Congressman from Nebraska and their former football coach wrote, "Your book sounds quite interesting. I
commend you on your willingness and courage to share details of your situation with others. I also appreciate your efforts to help
people understand the ramifications of substance addiction. Like you, I am deeply concerned about the alcohol problem facing the
United States, particularly underage drinking among our young children. It is devastating that in many cases it takes the loss of life
for some to recognize the severity of the problems associated with alcohol abuse. As a society, we can no longer have a
complacent attitude towards underage drinking if we want to stop the increased risk of harm that lasts well beyond our youth's
adolescent years. As parents, grandparents, teachers, and mentors, we owe it to our youth and the communities in which we live to
tackle these problems before they worsen."
Creating Dreams presents...
poems and stories of an alcoholic addict
Damaged Merchandise is available as an audio-book and is now being sold on iTunes, Amazon, and many other on-line sites.
Click here to see the new cover and how to order yours today. Below is a short video about this audio book.
If you are interested in a certain
chapter or two, you can purchase just
The video gives a brief idea on three
of the chapters and what the book is
The book is a lot more than the
musings of an alcoholic. It's about
life and growing up in an ever
Click here to order yours today...
Damaged Merchandise is available by order through any book store or on-line at unusual prices. I no longer list them here
because of the insane prices the publisher (PublishAmerica) is asking for it. And through this publisher I have not received a
royalty check in over seven years. Please don't buy my books on-line. You pay a crazy price and I get nothing. Buy it here and
help keep the site alive. And every purchased book will be autographed. Click here to order yours today.
I can sell this book at roughly half the cost that they are trying to sell it for and they will also be autographed.