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Last Updated 31 December 2018
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This story of her death hit home with me.  It reminded me of my suicide attempt and was an exact description of what I saw and
felt.  Except with one added element.  My parents.  As I tried to see in that grayish black void, I could barely see my mom’s hands
pushing me away.  She was sobbing and saying, “Noooooooo… not now.”  In the background was my dad, yelling in my mom’s ear
and pointing at me.  “I told you he was worthless… this is your fault.”

It was from this attempt that suicide never entered my mind again.  That suicide attempt took place in the little town of Tamora,
Nebraska.  The house I lived in was pure evil.  Like my childhood house, the man of the house was evil.  Physically, emotionally,
spiritually, sexually, you name it… there was evil.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not blaming that house for my actions.  Or the actions of my parents on my childhood home.  I am saying
that when a house experiences evil, it never leaves.  The evil lives in those walls for all eternity.

I saw my mom bleeding from wounds inflicted by my father.  That was over 50 years ago, but the memory is still there.  And
somewhere in that house is a drop of blood that was never found.  Somewhere on a heating pipe in the basement is some of my
mom’s skin from a burn on her leg.

Did the next owners of that home experience the evil that lurked within?  I don’t know, even if it has been a perfectly peaceful
residence, those walls will always have a touch of evil within them.

What is important for a person who has lived in an evil house is not to forget it.  You can forgive the evil, but you shouldn’t forget
it.  I tried to forget it and it didn’t work.  I became an alcoholic and just as abusive as my father.

By letting go of the secrets, the power of the past is defeated and evil dies.  My evil died when I quit drinking.  And then the shame
of my actions began to lessen when I realized that the evil I did when I drank was not present in my sober life.

The evil I did will live forever in the walls of the homes I lived in.  Those homes, like my own, are deep in our minds, no longer
buried, no longer hiding.  They are right next to me.  They remind me how easy evil can come alive when I drink.  And those
memories have kept me sober for over a quarter of a century.
14 Years
Within the past year I have watch two horror shows about
haunted houses.  One was,
The Haunting Of Hill House and
the other was
The House On Haunted Hill.  Part of the idea
behind both films is that the houses were alive.  The Haunting
had some good “lives” in it, that made a tree house for a little
boy.  It created little sanctuaries for a girl to have tea parties.  
Yet, the house also had evil lives.

That little boy with the tree house?  He also had a faceless
man, who floated three feet above the ground, with a cane,
who followed him everywhere.  The symbolism of this little boy’s
story was quite powerful.  In adult life, this boy became an
alcoholic/addict.  That ghost who followed him?  Was his
addictions… his crutch (cane) on life.

The little girl who had little tea parties (with a dead little girl’s
ghost), briefly died because of poison in her tea.  Years later
as an adult she described what she saw in the afterlife.  
Nothing.  A grayish black space in time, where she couldn’t see
anything or feel anything.  Nothing was alive.